The Two Hundred and Ninety-Eighth Post: The One Where I Am Trying To Stay Awake…

I remember when I was younger (much younger) I could go for a couple of days without sleeping and still have energy for rehearsals, studying, reading, writing and all that.  Now?  I have one night of insomnia and the rest of my week is shot.  My practical advice for writers?  Do not grow old.  It sucks.

I did manage to write a little bit today (yesterday was spent reading “Dexter Is Dead”) and with only a minor disruption to my schedule.  I have finished the first chapter and I am going to do a little revision to smooth out some rough parts because I know if I don’t do it now, I am going to forget about it.  This is to bring it up to date with the rest of the fantasy world that it’s taking place in.  Yeah, it sounds weird, but it will make sense later on.

I’m still haven’t figured out what’s going to happen past Ehren meeting his cousin, which is for me unusual because by the time I get to the keyboard, I have everything figured out and ready to go.  I’m trying a different approach to hopefully keep me going in this piece.  I get a little…wanderlustful when I write.  If you could peek inside my head, you’d see a literal graveyard of stories I’ve started and abandoned.  Heck, if you read this blog, you’ll see where I have started stories and hung them up for something else (usually another bright and shiny idea, but more often than not it was something external *cough* *cough* Borderlands *cough* *cough*) to do.  If I can get through the next chapter and past the cousin, I might start the reveal of the Big Bad.  I kinda like the Big Bad in this one: it’s a hive mind that calls back a couple of smaller villains from an earlier book.  My biggest fear is being sucked into a hive mind.  It’s a breakdown of those most indefatigable defenses in my own mind.  Losing my sense of independence and joining some mob — that’s what keeps me up at nights…other than heartburn and that damned mosquito.  Seriously, what is up with the kamikaze mosquito?  It dashes at my face shortly before disappearing and more than likely looking for a tasty spot to tuck in.

Ask me why I love winter.

Well, the day is sinking into my bones, so I am going to head off to bed.  I hope you all have a good day.

Sincerely,

Seething Apathy

The Two Hundred and Ninety-Seventh Post: The One Where I Re-Discover Simple Reading…

Hello, all — I didn’t do any writing today because I got THIS!  The final book in the Dexter series!  if you have not read this series, you are missing out on the best reading series out there…and I am somewhat hard to please.  Don’t let the negative comments about how the TV series ended keep you from enjoying this.  Yes — Season One and Book One were very similar, but they diverge for Book Two and Season Two (if you’re a fan of the series, I’d stop after the season with Colin Hanks).  I think the books are better because we really get inside Dexter’s head and how he sees the world and himself. Not to take away from Michael C. Hall’s performance, but just because of the strictures of the medium, we only get but so much.

I pre-ordered the book through Amazon, so it showed up in my Kindle the next morning.  I didn’t even bother to pack my iPad for writing at work because I knew I would be wolfing this down.  Seriously — I’m about halfway through it and it weighs in at 306 pages.  Reading this should be mandatory for anyone looking for a good example of First Person Narrative. For me, I got to indulge in just reading for fun.  Too often I find myself reading and making little mental notes about turn of phrase, or how a plot develops.  Interesting story — one time my Mom punished me by taking away TV for a month.  Ha — joke’s on her, I read the whole time and loved it.  I don’t even remember what the punishment was for.

Anyhow, enough about the book.  Nothing else got done today for obvious reasons, so I’ll just have to work harder tomorrow and get Ehren, OIsin and Vimala out of the wainwright’s and back on the open road.  I am going to stick to my goal of getting this book out the door by year’s end.  Hopefully, I can finish the text by September and spend the rest of the time editing and not take Nanowrimo this year seriously (not dropping out completely, but if I don’t finish then it’s not the end of the world for me).  I just need to buckle down again and get back into the swing of things.  After I finish this chapter and try to kill this mosquito.

Well, the day is beginning to weigh down on me, so I am going to try to bring this blog to a speed close.  Tomorrow, I’ll throw down my 1,700 words and maybe reward myself with another chapter.    Actually, another thing I need to do is to try to find a Bitcoin shopping card and try to sell some side stories from friends on this site.  Certainly can’t hurt, given that Bitcoin is jumping up to $270.00 today from $220.00 four months ago.

Have a good day, everyone.  I’ll be curled up on the couch reading about Dashing and Enduranced Dexter.

Sincerely,

Seething Apathy

The Two Hundred and Ninety-Six Post: The One Where I Try To Get Back On Schedule

Hello, all!  Now that the vacation period is over (I know this because today was light even for a Monday, so I am not looking forward to later on today…), and I am back to work officially as both writer and Dreaded Day Jobber, I would like to say that if you have any questions for me (limited to writing, as I like to keep my private life off the computers — what’s put up on the Internet stays on the Internet, right Beyonce?) feel free to ask them.

As far as the novel goes, I am getting the pair out of the house and off to the cousin’s tonight.  I’ve been wanting to write this scene because I am trying to work on how my characters sound when they talk to each other.  Sometimes, I get the feeling that there is little difference in how one character sounds compared to another.  For all the time I spend talking to people on the phones, I should have dialogue down pat.  For me, I am trying to not have to fall into the trap of writin’ foh-net-cally but give a hint of some sort of accent or manner of speaking through vocabulary.  Of course, I still need to get an idea of what the cousin is like.  He’s a moonshiner (where it’s not considered illegal, merely troublesome) and he is the one who Ehren buys his moonshine from in order to charge it with a little bit of the healing power — technically, it’s Vimala’s power, but we know what’s what around here — and his cousin charges him a slightly higher (“We’re cousins on your momma’s side, but that ain’t really family.”).  In my mind, I’m casting this guy just because he perfectly embodies the slimy part of the business — any business, really.  Yes, Ehren is a bit of a shyster and a lazy gadabout, but he’s at least trying to keep a small sense of respectability about him.  I see his cousin calling him out on it every now and then because he knows he can really tweak him with the reminder that there’s very little difference between the two of them.  Just that one of them accepts what fate has handed him and is making good money out of it and the other wants to put on airs of ‘benevolent capitalism’ to make himself feel good about himself.  Whether this improves or not, I am not sure — it’s still early in the draft for me to see what’s happening in between now and the end of the book (how much should he have left when it’s all said and done?  Really depends on my mood — could be the clothes on his back, could be nothing.  We’ll just have to see.).

Well, it’s getting near the time I should get some sleep.  If you’re interested in what I’m listening to when I write this, I’ve put my Spotify list out here and here.  I take no responsibility for your disappointment or enthusiasm.

Have a good day everyone,

Seething Apathy

The Two Hundred and Ninety-Fifth Post: The Post-Fourth After Action Report!

Hello, everyone!  I hope everyone had a good three day weekend.  I didn’t do much in terms of writing over the course of the weekend, but I did get to go see Terminator: Genesys.  

Wow — if you’re a fan of the franchise (like me) this film has everything.  It continues the story quite well and there are some genuinely funny moments in the film (still can’t get that smile right…).  There are some great callbacks to both films and while yes there is a big reveal that’s killed by the trailers (seriously, guys? A running time of 126 minutes and you pick those?), there is still enough surprises in the movie.  Oh, stick around after the credits for an additional scene that is going to lead into the next movie.  It’s in the top five movies of the summer for me, knocking Avengers: Age of Ultron from a very close second to an even closer third.  Mad Max: Fury Road remains on the top for me.  There are still a bunch of movies I want to see like Spy and Inside Out.  Those might be coming up for me in a couple of weeks.

Like I said earlier, there was no writing on the weekend for the holiday.  I am kinda chomping at the bit to get something started again, which is why this blog entry is a little late.  We’re still at the wainwright’s, but the axle is getting fitte in the wagon, so our main character will be off to see his cousin and get more swill to charge up and sell to others.  As any good writer (and me) will say that a scene needs to advance the plot, show us something about the character or their environment.  This scene is going to show that poor Ehren is estranged from both family and polite society.  With the scene with the wainwright, we see that Ehren is not a complete jerk.  He does grab some food to help with the scurvy and rickets ridden boy (Vimala wants him to do more…might rhyme with schmidschmapping), and gives up some of his food for him (if I’m lucky, I can write that scene today).  This little rule is useful to bring in when you start editing.  Of course, this rule must be used ruthlessly, and I try to use it early so I can kill my darling scene before they’re committed to paper.  Like ripping off a band-aid rather than easing it off, it better that way.

I apologize for this entry being late.  I was working on the aforementioned novel before I realized I didn’t have anything ready, so this will be a little short.  I will have more to say tomorrow.

Until then…

Sincerely,

Seething Apathy

The Two Hundred and Ninety-Fourth Post: The One Where I Explain Amazon’s Policies and How They Are Going to Change The Self-Publishing Field

Hello — now that I’m done spilling my guts out about next year’s project, I am going to bring up something that has started quite a kerfluffle on Facebook and on the Internet: Amazon’s new borrowing system.

Previously, Amazon did this: you borrowed a book from their service and in doing so, you read it and borrowed another.  To you, it was free…and it is as far as you paid nothing.  However, if you read 10% of it, it was counted as a “sale” and the author got a little something from it (I’ve been seeing $1.30, but I think it might have depended on the price of the book if bought).  This doesn’t seem bad really, if someone reads a book, but doesn’t like it, they return it by borrowing something else.  This is an excellent way to try new authors and even support them (Disclosure: I’ve had one of my books borrowed be people and got paid a very little bit).  I’m sure you can see where things could become gameable.

Example: you grab a fantasy novel, which could come in at 100,000 words easily.  If each page is on average 250 words, you’d have to read 10,000 words or 40 pages for the author to get paid for the borrow.  Most erotica comes in at around 5,000 to 8,000 words which comes out to 2 to 3.2 pages for the author to get paid (and less on average, something that small doesn’t usually get the 70% royalties that other things do).  Which do you think is going to happen?

Now, I have a friend who writes erotica and romance (Her books are to the left, feel free to buy one or two — she quite good) and she’s not happy about what’s going on.  What is going on is that Amazon is switching to a different pay scheme for borrowing books.  You are now going to get paid per page read.  Yep.  If someone borrows a book (and even at Kindle’s prices for books, how is someone going to turn down free?  Don’t think it’s possible?  The Quietest Heart had nothing May 31st — no sales, no borrows, nothing.  When I put it up for free the next day, 53 units given away and it went up and down for a while until the promotion ended in June 7th.  Doesn’t do a whole lot for my ego to be honest.), the writer is only going to get paid for what he reads.  If you’re a good writer, then you’ll get a good rate.  If you’re a middlin’ writer, then well you might enough so that you can take your family out to the upscale Outback restaurant right across the street from the mall.

Amazon has been clever enough to not release the formula that they’re going to use to determine who gets what.  I’m hoping that it’s going to be the royalty divided by the number of pages read…which could come out to something along the lines of 2 to 3 cents a page.  This is going to do a lot of harm to the self-publishing community.  Beyond a lot of people losing revenue (ever read a cookbook from cover to cover?), this puts a lot of advantage in Amazon’s court.  Books that don’t perform well hardly get paid (which makes a wonderful opportunity for Amazon to come in with their ad campaign for self-publishers — for mere $100, they can put your book in ads that most people are going to ignore) and books that get read cover to cover might not get the same royalty rate as if someone bought it.  If it is not royalty divided by page count, then what is it?  What is this going to do to the market in general?  If you only get a couple of bucks for a full read (consider that the average book is going to be $2.99 at a 70% royalty [not adding in the reseller 4 to 6 percent] is 2.09 minus Amazon’s “transfer fee” (yep, get you coming and going) and the average length of a novel is 60,000 words.  60,000 words translates into 240 pages which means each page is going to be worth… .008 cents.  Read 10% of that book and the author makes .048 cents.  Amazon’s Kindle Lending Program and Kindle Unlimited are how Amazon is going to stay solvent.  That money that’s not being used it going to go into the war chest, which they need to invest and grow.  Why?  Read this article (Amazon is #2 on the list) and the change in attitude will become clearer.

There is actually an upside to this beyond that company staying afloat to sell us Kindles.  Writers are now going to have to get better.  They write a kick ass 10% and a crappy 90% now.  I doubt that this is Amazon’s initial idea, but it’s going to be an unexpected benefit.  However, while I hope that it will make self-publishing a little more of a good idea rather than a ‘bless your heart’ notion, I am not in favor of something that is going to hurt the honest people out there (like my friends to the right).

What’s a writer to do?  People out there are going to go from making about $3,000 a month to maybe 10% of that on a good month.  The answer is three-fold:

1) Don’t use their system.  Amazon is not the only game in town when it comes to self-publishing.  They may be the best know, but there is Kobo, Barnes and Noble and iBook.  Draft2Digital is a good service to use.  Smashwords is another.  They may not have the heft or reach of Amazon, but they’re there.

2) Use Amazon’s referral service as well if you’re a writer.  See my links to the right of the page?  I get an additional 4 percent when you click on them and buy the book.  That helps a lot.  It doesn’t take a lot and it helps.

3) Be prolific as a (censored) rabbit.  This is the best way to game the system.  The more books you have being borrowed, the more money you’re going to get.  That’s the best way for a lot of erotic writers to work, since they’re used to churning out a lot of work in a short amount of time.

4) Sell it yourself.  This does hand in hand with number one.  You have to have a website nowadays (even for a modest blog like mine)  You’ve got a captive audience reading your works online — set up a small shopping cart and sell your stuff for the right price directly to the consumer.  There are free programs out there to format your book and places to store it online.

Amazon is not the great giant it thinks it is.  We are the underdogs and we are all still too pretty to die.

The Two Hundred and Ninety-Third Post: The One Where I Swear I’m Going to Get Off of This Subject by The End.

When last we left Anya, she was heading down to the bakery with some coins and a mission to get some sweetbreads for Rhona.  As she walks down the streets, which are quiet (a very hungover quiet), she gets the feeling she’s being watched.  She keeps a wary eye around her and notices that someone is shadowing her.  Finding the bakery, she walks in and asks for two pastries, watching the reflections of her surroundings for anyone trailing her.  She doesn’t see anything by the time she gets the warm rolls.  She heads back to the inn, feeling a little better that there is a problem that she can really engage herself with — being followed.  Employing tricks she learned, she manages to shake her tail and reverses her path to see who is trailing her.  Sadly, her tail is gone now.  Heading back to the inn, she opens the door to the room with cooling rolls.  Rhona is awake and pouring some tea with a sizeable breakfast set before her.  Skein’s Glow proudly announces that breakfast is served.  Anya looks over everything — this is a breakfast that would feed a small squad.  She sets her bag with two sweet rolls on the corner of the table.  Rhona takes out the rolls and takes a bite (almost going into orgasms).  Anya doubles up on the sausages and bacon while Rhona takes a little of everything else.  They review their plans for the rest of the day…which are mostly dance, drink and have no worries for a week.  Anya gets a little behind it, but she isn’t going to tell Rhona about being followed.  It’s their honeymoon after all.

The meal put away and cleaned up, the pair head out to see if any taverns are either opening early or never closed.  Rhona reaches to grab her mandolin, but Anya manages to talk her out of it (no one works on their honeymoon).  They head down and find a dance hall that didn’t bother to close.  The pair come in and hear that this dance hall is the beginning of the Long Dance — a contest in which a group of people start at one place and dance, drink and carouse to be judged by their peers.  Whoever makes it through to the end is crowned the Master of the Dance and will get a carafe of wine and a nifty title to defend next year.  Rhona pulls Anya along and registers, holding up their bracelet clad arms to show.  The organizer congratulates them and tells them the rules: someone from the audience chooses a song or a style and the group dances.  Those that are voted favorably get to advance, while the losers are eliminated from competition, but not from the general drinking or dances.  The winners are rewarded at the finals stage (think of this as So You Think You Can Dance turned into a pub crawl) with a little pocket money (wagers are common, but not deadly serious).  THey are told that the event will begin in a few minutes, so they have a chance to get some refreshments and food, as there will be little time in between dances.

Anya asks that Rhona wear both Skein’s Glow (which she is wearing as a cloak over her jacket) and Wandersfar (which Rhona is wearing), but that they don’t use them to sway the outcome in her favor.  This is a contest of stamina and grace after all, there is no need for cheating (as it goes against Anya’s principles).  Rhona politely and respectfully chides her for her competitive spirit.

“I’m not being competitive.  I just want to win.”

The dance starts with a morning waltz.  People quickly partner up and dance.  Out of the original crowd of 23 couples and a throng of hundreds of followers, ten couples are removed and Anya and Rhona continue on.  A whirlwind of drinks and they find themselves at the next dance hall where the music is a little more lively and the judging a little more discriminating.  Anya and Rhona hang on, while Anya notices that there is someone in the periphery of the crowd.  She tells Rhona to watch that particular person…there is something about him that she doesn’t like.  Rhona pooh-poohs it away and they continue dancing.  The crowd is now down by four and they head to the next hall.  Anya watches and as sure as anything, there he is.  As the next dance starts, Anya is told she has to dance or forfeit (not a horrible thing all around, but asking Anya to throw a match of any sort — being it fighting, dancing or tiddlywinks is out of the question).  Anya dances on with Rhona, making sure that she tries to keep the stalker in view.  In the confusion of switching dance halls, she loses the stalker.

The dance continues on, getting slightly more athletic and the heroines are suffering from Anya’s divided attention.  They are narrowly eliminated from competition.  The leader calls for a “halftime” so that the dancers can relax and get something to eat.  Anya looks out a window to see what time it is.  It’s late afternoon now.  She makes a quick meal, sitting with Rhona, but seems more intent on trying to find the stalker.  Rhona asks her if there is any danger.  She honestly doesn’t know, but doesn’t want to take chances.

Would your father actually try to send people out to kill you?

“Wouldn’t be surprised.  Congratulations, blessed wife, this is your life now.”

The break comes to an end and the dancing continues through several more halls, leaving Rhona and Anya merrily exhausted at the last hall where it comes down to our couple and a very athletic looking pair from Ozur-Soren proper.  The dance starts — three dances, each couple gets to choose one and the Master of Ceremonies picks the final.  Rhona picks a lively drinking tune and they dance…not badly.  The other couple picks a very active dance and they do well.  The Master of Ceremonies picks a cantata and they go at it…with the couple from Ozur-Soren winning.  Anya, knowing that being a gracious loser is an equally important skill as being a good winner, congratulates the couple.  They say that the two gave them a run for their money.  Now everyone joins in the dance, picking partners pell-mell.  Rhona and Anya end up getting swept apart, but they trust each other.

Anya finds herself in an alley and she sobers up quickly.  The guy stalking her closes the door behind her and takes out a single knife.

“Cheslav sends their regards.”

Anya snorts and comments that Cheslav can’t even be bothered to send their own students, that they have to hire out people to get beaten.  The thug comments that Anya is drunk and can’t even unsheathe her weapons.  Anya punches one guy, knees another and shoves a third down the alleyway.  Even drunk, her training takes over and she holds her own…until someone manages to get run head first into a wall.  Before one of them can actually finish her off, the local constabulary scatter the ones able to move.  Running on instinct, Anya takes off in a direction to avoid having awkward questions (while she’s not a member of the Scholarship, she’s still a Tarjentian and there are some lingering bad blood between the two).

Running down the street, with blood streaming down her face, she’s called to a door deep in another shadowed alley.  She takes it, thinking that at least she’s not in the view of the guards when she’s pulled through the doorway into a room with a stack of books almost twice as tall as she is.  This is Ozur-Soren’s other legacy: The Great Keep.  Every tale, bit of news, experiment and whatever is recorded here.  This is the Library of Alexandria on steroids and raw cow meat.  The man tends to her wounds while asking her questions about what’s been happening, particularly with the Scholarship.  Anya makes a couple of reports, also commenting on what’s happened with her (‘would make a good tale’) and asking if they have any Tales of Kaspar Tarjen.

“Do I?”  He does.  While almost every Tarjentian can recite their favorite tale, Anya takes it one step further: she knows about 90% of the tales…by memory.  Kaspar Tarjen is the (obviously) the founder of the Scholarship and the source of a lot of folklore.  Think of the Tall Tales from the American West, but enshrined in an almost religious sense.  The scholar there remarks that there will always be a need for as Kaspar…maybe not in Tarjen, but certainly somewhere in the world someone needs an almost mythic figure to look up to.  Anya regards Kaspar as almost a father figure.

Then it hits her.  Her purpose in life.  What she can do.

She’s going to be like Kaspar.  She’s going to fight the evil in the world.

She thanks the scholar and makes her way back to the inn.  Anya tells Rhona the idea she had, for a second we might think that Rhona would find this a little silly.  Instead, she asks when can they start.  Anya says they’ll find the next ship out back to the mainland…but she needs to do this without Skein’s Glow and Wandersfar.  The pair understand — they feel it is about time to part ways and be of service to someone else.  They give each of them a parting gift — a metal pin that other Rahsaya will recognise as marking them as allies.  The pair head down to the docks, pausing to find a young lady who appears passed out by a seedy tavern door.  Anya sets the Regalia down next to her (leading off on another tale with the two) and head to a ship.  Wherever they go, they will be together until the end.

…and that’s the quick and dirty run down on “Daughter of the Mountain”.  This is really just a preliminary look.  Things are going to change around and get expanded upon, so what you see here might not even be the same story.  I am looking forward to doing this as my Nanowrimo project.  Hopefully be then I’ll have a better idea as to what’s going to happen.

On news of a much better sort: My Novel Got Reviewed!  4 Stars!  Run and check it out!

Wow — look at the time,  I need to get some sleep.  Thanks for sticking around with me on this.  Tomorrow, I hope to have something else to talk about. Until then, good friends…

Sincerely,

Seething Apathy

The Two Hundred and Ninety-Second Post: The One Where I Try To Wrap It All Up…

OK, when last we left our group, Rhona was dancing and playing and Anya was drinking and try to remember where she had seen the one who was giving her a hate-filled look.  She considers walking up to him and asking what’s his beef, but before she can walk over to the table, Rhona comes in and sweeps her away to dance.  She balks a little, but Rhona’s charms woo her over and she starte to dance along…with Skein’s Glow assisting in the dancing (and by assisting, we mean making her look a little more graceful that what she really is).  Anya ties to heed the cloak’s advice and have some fun.  Dancing between the table and the floor to get some drink, Anya sees that the bodyguards and the incoming students are gone.  There is something about this that doesn’t strike Anya as being good.  Before she can investigate, Rhona draws her back into the center of the dance, much to the admiration of the other dancers (like I said, Skein’s Glow is helping out a great deal).

A few more draughts of wine, ale and mead to boot and Anya and her blushing bride are heading towards the part of town that eats mostly with inns.  Here, the innkeepers are a little more aggressive at how they get people to occupy their rooms.  One such person spies the bracelets that the couple are wearing and invites them in for the honeymoon suite.  Anya reaches into her coin purse and takes out several gold coins.  The innkeeper takes the coins and guides them up to the room.  It’s nice as far the view — overlooking the farmlands and vineyards beyond the borders of the city of Ozur-Soren.  Anya doesn’t take in the view that much.  She just sits down on the bed (a nice one by the way) and tries to take off the jacket.  Rhona takes it all in and turns around to face her new wife. Anya is shaking and trying her best to hold something back.  She sits down next to the Scholar and asks hire what’s wrong.

“How can you be happy?  What are we going to do for money?”  Anya’s fears come to light.mmshes on a path with no clear direction either to or fro.  For the first time in her life she has no hard and fast rule to go by.  Rhona sits down and puts her arm around Anya’s shoulder to comfort her.  Leaning in she tells Anya that she has no idea where to go or what to do beyond have breakfast, but she trusts that the spirits of the woods, water and wind will not deliver her to more harm than she can bear at once.  She also points out that they have two of The Regalia.  As long as they are with them, there is nothing that they need to fear.  Not hunger, not thirst and certainly not boredom.  Anya agrees and is ashamed for her little freak-out.  Rhona smiles and says that there is one way she can make it up to her.

Cut to the next morning.  Anya walks down the stairs after dressing in plain clothes.  She asks the innkeeper if there is a place that sells rolls and cheese.  The innkeeper directs her to his cousin who is one of the best bakers in the city.  She starts out the door, the stops and heads back up to get her weapons.  Creeping in, she grabs her things and puts on a modest vest and some better leggings.  Skein’s Glow asks to come along and Anya nixes the idea.  She’s in Ozur-Soren and she’s hardly unarmed, even if she can’t get the blades free of th scabbard.  Dressing in something a little better than underclothes, she heads out to the marketplace.

I’m going to have to end it here.  It’s late for me and I still have to get up in the morning to work on the current project.  I’ll try to finish the whole thing up tomorrow.  I know this seems a little bad bones, but it’s helping out in the planning process.  I hope you’ve enjoyed it so far, and I look forward to entertaining you tomorrow.

Sincerely,

Seething Apathy