The One Hundred and Fifty-Sixth Post: The One Where I Just Give Up and Awake at 7:00 AM…

I tried to go back to sleep and after a few minutes of tossing and turning and trying so hard to not look at the clock, I just decided to stay up and favor all of my readers (hi!) with an early posting. With luck and coffee on my side, I hope to not be a shambling mound at work today. No emergency coffee is needed, yet. Just me, the PC and the Art Bell feed should be enough to keep me going. Tonight, I should have no problems getting to sleep… snerk.

Still slogging through the re-write of the first novel, which I am going to restrict to the weekends and I am going to work on I/O Error during the weekdays. This arrangement will hopefully allow me to get something done before my deadline. My big problem with I/O Error is that there is no good ending for this novel. There’s the Hollywood ending, which works in a film, but I don’t think it’s going to be a satisfactory ending for the novel. It is, unfortunately, the only ending that I can come up with right now. While I am a hybrid writer, I usually know where I am going before I get there. Right now, I am walking through Dante’s darkened woods and my flashlight keeps going out… and what’s that music? I am also going to do a little bit more on After Ever with Scrivener and might do that here and there. I might do it both as a comic book script and as a series of novellas. I’ll just plan on it at work. I have a list of chapter titles – see if you can pick out the theme:

Season One

  1. Paranoia
  2. Hypervigilance
  3. Flashbacks
  4. Upsetting Dreams
  5. Avoidance
  6. Emotional Numbing
  7. Intrusive Memories
  8. Anxiety
  9. Anger
  10. Insomnia
  11. Hyperaware
  12. Guilt
  13. Shame
  14. Self-destructive Behavior
  15. Insomnia
  16. Trouble Concentrating
  17. Hopelessness
  18. Startled
  19. Memory Problems
  20. Not So Close
  21. Trigger Warning
  22. Lack of Focus
  23. (part one) Drinking Too Much (part two) Mental Breakdown

Good Luck! As more things happen, this might be the one I share with the readers here – I know a couple of you are/were gamers, so having some sort of input would be nice.

Wow – it’s almost 8:00 here and I’ve almost finished this blog and I’ll have time to do a little more writing than just a dialogue tag before everyone else is awake in the neighborhood. Oh – also got the new Hatebreed album: [censored] amazing! If you need music to wake you up and put on your steel-toes, this is the band to help you along. It’s odd that I am writing and not feeling rushed or distracted. Maybe I only need 5 hours of sleep. We will see about that tonight, won’t we?

Well, off to write something and plot something else. Hope y’all have a good day.



Seething Apathy