The One Hundred and Forty-Fifth Post: The One Where I Relay to You A Nightmare I Had…

Like a lot of the dreams I have, I can only remember bits and pieces I have, but what I can remember is kind of scary to me:

I was on a college campus (a specific college, but one I will not name for it deserves no attention) in a small town in the Carolinas and things were going along nicely. I was getting good grades in the classes, I had friends and everything was going along swimmingly… until it didn’t. Friends acted alien towards me, classes were beginning to slip and I noticed a small robot – the best way to describe it is to take Johnny 5, reduce him to an upper torso and give him a three foot long extension 45 degrees off his long axis. No matter where I went, this robot was always close by, trying to crawl towards me and I didn’t seem to like the idea. Whenever I told people about this robot, I would get the standard reply: ‘it’s not a problem to us. Why are you letting it be a problem to you?’ or even a downright denial of its existence. I ask my friends for help or advise and all I get is: ‘let it touch you and see what happens’. So I decide to take matters into my own hands and try to video it moving towards me. I take a flimsy laptop (I have no idea why I wouldn’t have my phone, or… I don’t know… a real camera with me at this point) and I wait for it to find me. While I’m waiting, I am getting everything set up on the laptop. Apparently, the camera function on this laptop needs to be registered.

The robot arrives with a new little skill: it can thrust itself into the air and drop down a few yards closer. Of course, as it demonstrates this new talent, I am still trying to get set up on the camera and it’s asking the most inane questions (“What sort of photography will you be taking? Please choose one of the offered styles: 1) business 2) pleasure 3) surreal 4) erotic 5) family”). As I say that this is a flimsy laptop, I mean that I have to use two hands to operate this thing: one to type in the answers (“In order to secure your password, you will need to create a key phrase. A key phrase is one that only you would know. Please submit a phrase that is no less than three words and no more than seven.”) and another to keep the screen and the keyboard from coming apart (a note of historical accuracy: my very first laptop – also my first computer – was like this: in order to see the screen, I had to lean it against something to keep it from breaking off). As I am trying to get this camera working on this crumbling laptop (“What you entered is an impolite phrase. Please re-type a phrase that is more family friendly.”), the robot is getting closer and looking a lot more menacing at me.

Then I wake up – an hour before my alarm goes off. I roll over on my bed and go back to sleep.

Well, time to go to work (speaking of menacing robots). Hope y’all have a good day.



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The One Hundred and Forty-Fourth Post: The One Where I Have No Idea What To Write…

Seriously, just waking up and there was nothing interesting going on last night, no weird dreams, no sit upright in bed and shout ‘Eureka!’ moment for me. Just a humdrum evening followed by a (hopefully) another humdrum day. Since I finally got paid, I got the program for my Fire so I can do a little word processing when things get slow. Now, having done this – it is never going to get slow at work. I know – that’s a hard thing to think of, but that’s how my luck runs sometimes. That reminds me: I need to get my hands on Halo 4 on my next paycheck and possibly pre-order Bioshock: Infinite – assuming that they’re going to stick to a release date, and then try to get that release date and the following day off to play it almost non-stop. If you’re looking for a game that transcends the idea of being an amusement and delves into story-telling – the Bioshock series is the way to go. Where else can you learn about Objectivism and shoot bees out of your hand?

I/O Error – speaking of stories – is plodding along. I did do a little bit last night and ended up cutting down a wall of text or two. I am getting ready to work on the next major scene with Nate and Gail coming to polite, robotic blows over Gail’s perceived insanity (or should I say ‘unquiet’?). I’m hoping to get more done on the weekend and maybe even close out a chapter or two. I am still committed to the idea of finishing the whole novel by the end of March. If I can afford the editor at that point (and I do have one in mind) I would like to get that done first and save back some more cash for a suitable artist. If all goes well, I will have it out on Amazon and other platforms by the middle of the year. My goal is to finish the rough draft of a novel every quarter, and put out two finished products a year. Ambitious? Yes, but it will get me out of my current situation. Going back to the whole word processor in my Fire thing, I am going to start serializing After
Ever next month. I’ll work on the outline late Saturdays and get started on the first two episodes since they are waiting to be put down in my head. I’m still going to script them out for fun, but I should really start to get things out there to get paid.

Football is winding down – four wild card games to be played and I am rooting for… none of them really. My team won their last three games but it was way too little way too late. At least they’ll get a good view of the play-offs from their couch. Must be nice.

Well, I am off to get some lunch and a shower. Hope y’all have a good day.



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The One Hundred and Forty-Third Post: The One Where I Try To Make Up For Yesterday…

I am in somewhat of a better mood today – and by better, I mean I am not looking to throw myself off a rooftop. I can deal with the slight soreness in my shoulders and the itching of a growing beard (which I should shave off soon) as long as I have my special drink. I am going to get a new coffee-maker so I can have something warm to drink without having to use up my Starbucks card… which I need to refill soon anyway. Yes, I am an addict and I feel fine, thank you.

I am going to get back into I/O Error today (maybe after lunch if I have time, if not then at work after I get the Office app for my Kindle – which I will get as soon as my work deigns to pay me) and work to the goal of getting the rough draft finished by the end of March. After that, it’s going to be a novel a business quarter. I am also going to start shoving aside money to pay for editors and artists. My big goal is to have at least one finished, edited and arted-up book by the end of the year. Obviously, I am going to shoot for more than that, but one will suffice. I’m still trying to come up with an idea for an erotic novel – this is turning into something a little harder than what I had anticipated. The end and the middle of the novel would be no problem: ‘… and they have sex’ and ‘… and they have hot, kinky sex’ respectively. I guess I’m trying to wedge sex into a plot like trying to hammer in a square peg into a round hole. I should be doing the opposite – have a regular plot and look for opportunities to have sex (much like real life, but have a higher success rate). I am going to just throwing out something into the notebook and see what grows. Maybe I can recycle an old ff plot – if I do that, then I know what I should use.

Right now, as far as reading goes – I’ve finished The Last Mythal series by Richard Baker. If you’re a fan of the old Forgotten Realms books from the Hallowed Era of TSR, then you’ll like this. Personally, I like the older books, but they are getting hard to find. I’m guessing that Wizards is trying their damnest to sweep the legacy of TSR under the rug. I am also in the middle of the book Tears in Rain, which is pretty much the spiritual successor to Blade Runner and a darn good read. After this, I am going to read a book that I got for free called Drowning
Ophelia. Did I mention that I love my Kindle? It’s nice to be able to pick up free books – gives me the chance to read genres that I normally wouldn’t get into.

Well, I need to shower and shout at my bank for a few minutes. I hope y’all have a good day.



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The One Hundred and Forty-Second Post: The One Where I Am Dreading Today…

If you will allow me, I am going to give you a little glimpse into what I expect for today. As you know, yesterday was New Year’s Day and a holiday for most people – not me, however. I still had to go into work. I took ten calls in 8 hours. I normally take ten calls in two hours on a busy day. I expect today to be very busy because now we’re getting people who wanted to call in yesterday and the people who would call in today. Yeah. Today is going to be a big day. Bleh. I just don’t feel right today. I can’t put my finger on it, but I feel like I could crawl back into bed and sleep for another two weeks.

Honestly, I don’t think I’ll do much else today. Not even on this blog. Sorry, all – I am just feeling bleh.

More tomorrow, I promise.

The One Hundred and Forty-First Post: The One Where I Give You The Over-Under On My New Year’s Resolutions…

… and it’s twenty minutes. Good luck for all of you playing at home.

Now that 2013 has come and 2012 has gone with nary a Zombie Apocalypse to be seen, we can all buckle down and concentrate on what’s important… which I have no idea what that is anymore. The news tells me that we’re going over the financial cliff, but so far no one has run by the house and yelled that the banks are out of money. So, I will remain cautiously optimistic for this year… well, for at least the next hour.

The holiday season is pretty much over (I don’t include Valentine’s Day), I can get back to the blog and back to I/O Error. My goal (not a resolution – resolutions get dropped) is to get the novel finished by the end of March and get back to trying to finish a novel a quarter – which means I am now going to start writing every day at least 2,000 words. So, I’ll have to sandwich in some writing time in between the playoffs – something that Mr. Martin and I might have in common (it certainly isn’t football teams). Good news for me – my team didn’t make it, so it’s probably going to be a little easier to ignore the commentary until the Super Bowl in February (or is it going to be in March? Is it just me, or does it seem to happen later and later every year?). As far as what’s going on in I/O Error, we’ve met the Spooky Sisters and they’ve made their demands. All that I need to do now is show them making good on their threats – which is going to be fun for me. After this is finished, I am going to get onto the next project of Valentina’s Feast – I want to get all the one-shots done before I start working on long term series. Which means it’s going to be Valentina’s Feast followed by Bestial, Zeno’s Calendar and Graphic Love which should take me into next year and hopefully out of here before then.

There is really little else to report here. I had the Horror Movie marathon and out of the three new films, Drag Me to Hell was the scariest and 1408 was the most underwhelming. Population: 436 gets the ‘most wanted to have a twist ending’ award. I think next year is going to be an all J-Horror movie festival. I was kinda disappointed in the movies this year, but I’m sure that there will be better movies coming down the road for next year. As far as movies in the theatre go – I’m going to go see The Hobbit: An Unexpected Journey and Skyfall Saturday. Did I mention that I finally got a Blu-Ray player? Yep – and got the Lord of the Rings trilogy, so my Easter tradition is going to get a glorious new re-vamping.

Well, I need to get out of here and get back to I/O Error. I hope that everyone has a great New Year’s Day and a prosperous New Year.



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