The Eighty-Seventh Post: The One Where I Am Trying To Fight Fatigue… Again…

I don’t know if anyone here has been so tired that they fell asleep as soon as they sat down, but that’s what happened to me today. Got up early on today to make sure that I was able to get to the hotel where the meeting is being held, and actually relax for a second before I have to get stuff printed. I stayed up a little later than I wanted to do get the assignment ready. So, I went to bed at 2:30 AM and got up at 8:30 AM – six hours of sleep, not a problem. Woke up, had a breakfast of a glass of milk and went to the meeting. Got there at around 9:00 – got a Pepsi and an apple pie. That was the last of the good things before the meeting. I went to Office Max and they were having problems with their copier system linking to their network. I’m sure that you’re just as confused as I am – apparently the person getting something printed had to get it pulled off the Internet, with me and my primitive flash-drive waiting. Apparently I was more tired than I had considered, because I just said “I’ll come back later” – code for: “not doing this again”. I’m kinda disappointed because I wanted to get this done and read because I am doing it in first person which is something that I am not really comfortable with writing. OK – I went back to the hotel, less than enthused. Rather than hang out in the lobby, I thought I would jump ahead and go to the back, maybe work on something else and see if I could get into the local network to print something.

Which would have been a great idea had the printer there been working. So – no dice on my piece. Oh, well – there is next month when I should have the whole novel finished by the net meeting and just get some feedback on some of the shakier parts… like all of them. So – I got there and apparently, there is drama. Someone quit or something, or dumped people. I don’t know, because I am not in the main e-mail group. One of the members made a comment that I hadn’t made any sort of RSVP in a rather accusatory tone. I reminded him that no one bothers to e-mail me anything and that I assume that there is going to be a meeting unless someone bothers to tell me otherwise (please see prior point). This is one of the things that made me reconsider using a group in the first place. While I understand there is going to be politics, but… really? I’m not here to wade through bullshit; I am there to improve my craft. I’m going to see how everything shakes out in the next couple of months. Seriously, if I have to put up with a lot of this sort of crap, I will leave. I have no time for this grade school crap.

Speaking of the novel – I am getting the last ice cream scene finished tonight and will work on the bridges during the week. Oh – and I have a vacation coming up, so there are going to be three days in which I can really pour it on and maybe even finish early to have a genuine day off or two to play some games. After that, I am going to go on to the next novel and get that going to have that one finished by the end of the year and have the first one out there in the wilds by Christmas. I am hoping that I can do a novel (50K-60K) every three months. If I can’t have quality, I’ll take quantity.

Well – all of this day was rather exhausting for me. I’m going to sign off and get some sleep.


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The Eighty-Sixth Post: The One I Wrote While Trying Not To Yell At A Stranger…

Where I live, we have loud people. Normally, this doesn’t concern me, but it becomes an issue when I’m only getting five hours of sleep. Which means I have to double up on the caffeine to try to wake up for writing and the morning (yaaa… second shift!) so I can be ready for work in the afternoon. Bleh. I’m still a little sleepy, so I got the caffeine here and trying to get going. Tomorrow is the writer’s group, so I am going to write 2K in first person when I get home – and I sincerely hope to get out early. I have movies to watch, words to write and maybe some ice cream to eat. I have priorities after all.

I’ve finished the first ice cream scene in the final part of the novel, and now proudly moving on to the second scene.


I can’t get going this morning. I apologize. Saturday will be better, I swear.



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The Eighty-Fifth Post: The One I Write While Waiting For The Paycheck to Come In…

While I like getting my paycheck automatically deposited into my account, I don’t like that it’s not a consistent affair as far as time goes. Sometimes, it comes in during the pre-dawn hours and I get to wake up with it. Other times, I check my bank statement online like I have OCD (these times are usually predicated by my gas tank hovering a micrometer above ‘E’) to know when I can head out and get my errands run before the work day begins for me. Today, I have to get a new cyan cartridge for my printer as well as get gas for the beast and I might get myself a Barnes and Noble gift card for the Nook. Also the bills need to be paid and I have yet to terrorize my favorite restaurant. Ahh… payday Thursday – it’s like Friday, but you have money to spend (at least after the bills are paid – I’m looking at you cable company).

I’m still working on the ice cream scenes on my Color. Tomorrow evening, I am going to work on a short first person piece for the writing group from an idea I had called “Image: Maker”. I’ve never written that much in first-person, and I have been asked to stretch myself in the group (well, it was a request made for the group, but I am taking it seriously). Oh – I’ve also found some really neat software for writing! Well, two websites and software: here, here and here. I’ve tried them and they’re basic as far as editing goes: adverbs, repeated phrases, grammar – still no substitute for a flesh-and-blood editor (like mine), but for someone just starting out this is an invaluable resource.

Well, the summer is winding down here. It just seems like only yesterday I was complaining about the heat and nudging the AC closer to zero centigrade. Now, the temperature are on the warmer side of pleasant and the dogs are going crazy over the kids walking to school – unlike them going crazy because the kids are heading to a friend’s house, or just going crazy. Of course, the end of summer means my birthday is creeping closer. It also means I am going to have a short vacation coming up, followed by a nice long one. For both of these vacations, I intend on not being completely sober for several of those days. Which also reminds me: I need to preorder this game, since my long vacation is going to fall on the release date. Between that and Borderlands 2 – the last quarter of the year, I don’t think I am going to be very productive. Which means I should get to work now, or close to now – I do have to go to Penn Station and make sure they haven’t forgotten their fear of me (just kidding – I love that place).

Since I have to go, I will wish all of you a good Thursday and hope your weeks are good.


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The Eighty-Fourth Post: The One Where I Watch The Only “Reality” Based Show I Like…

This is my secret shame… I love this show .  Sure, it may be faked but it’s an entertaining fake.  I’ve always been interested in the paranormal.  When I went to the library as a child, I would always go to the paranormal section (which I can find in any library) and read all the books there.  Shortly after that, I started my long love affair with horror.  I even told my mom that I wanted to study the paranormal… and got a rebuff for it — apparently being a paranormal investigator doesn’t pull in the big bucks (or at least it didn’t in 1976).  So with that nugget of wisdom in my mind, I tried to find other things to make money rather than follow dream.  Which is why I am trying to publish my work a lot later in life than other people.  Oh, well — the upside is that with today’s technology, I can publish without having to go through the gauntlet of agents, publishers and more rejection slips than trees.  So, maybe everything has worked out in the end.

I am working on the ice cream scene in the novel on my Nook Color.  I slept in a little today and won’t really have the time to work on the novel here.  I’ll try to finish the first ice cream scene and then go right to the second scene and possibly the third scene (also called the end), then load everything into the work processor and fill in the gaps.  Probably not the best way to do it, but it is the most efficient.  I also need to work on something for the writer’s group.  I might do 2,000 words from Image: Maker.  It’s first person — something I am not really comfortable with, but I should learn to stretch myself as far as writing goes.  I also need to grab $20.00 for the inevitable lunch.  I just hope we don’t have to go back to the Indian Buffet.  There was very little that was good.  I’d just as soon go to Chili’s and get some more of that bean dip.  Mmmm-mmm.

I am going to grumble about one more thing: Amazon.  I took advantage of the “Supersaver” and ordered three things: Empowered, vol 7, Rule 34 and Babylon Confidential.  The first two are already released, but the third one is not due to be released in November… and since I did the “Supersaver” and I had to pick the “ship items in as few packages as possible” I have to wait until November.  November!  I’m not really concerned about the other two books — I’m getting Babylon Confidential out of curiosity, and Rule 34 because I want to read some cyberpunk — but I’ve been waiting for Empowered for five months.  Really Amazon?  Really?  You’re not helping.  But, I will recommend Empowered — it’s got a manga look to it, but don’t let it fool you.  It’s a great read and a satire on a lot of comic book themes… and the main character is really hot.  Ok — that shouldn’t be one of the criterion for a comic book, but it’s true.  Emp is good looking.  There are mature themes, so you have been warned.

Well, I need to microwave my lunch and shower.  I hope you all have a great day.



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The Eighty-Third Post: The One Where I Try To Write While Still Half-Asleep…

I even slept in an extra half hour to try to get ready for today.  Waking up is being a little problematic as sualy, so I am going to do my best to get something down and get my brain working.  My job wasn’t the hassle is has been for the past few days — I’m hoping the worst of Statement Week is over and I can go back to my unhurried anguish.  I will admit that I like my new hours just because everything slows down after 8:00 and I can read.  Did I mention that I love my Nook Color?  I really do.

I am going to charge back to the novel and finish the poisoner’s scene here and work some more on the pappa scene at work (did I mention that I love my Nook Color?  I can write on it!).  Things are just slow today.  I might have to try something else as far as a writing schedule.  I might do more at work when I am a little more awake.  Right now, I need to get things together.  Sorry for the short post, all.  I am still a little sleepy.


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The Eighty-Second Post: The One I Am Writing Before I Resume Writing…

Well, like I said earlier – the Olympics are done with and I should be heading back to work on the novel. I am going to work like a madman in order to try to make up for some of the lost time. With the vacation coming up in a couple of weeks, I should be able to get a lot more done and might even finish since a couple of other plans may fall through – depends on funding issues. Bleh, I feel so tired right now and I only blame myself since I got caught in the web that is this site. I had an idea for a Japanese-ish horror comic (just needed someone to draw it) and I was looking up stories about the onryou (this movie is a great Western example) and the next thing I know, it’s 2:30 and I have to get up in about five hours. The Internet is going to be the death of me at some point. So, I got myself a few hours of sleep and will depend on caffeine to keep me going for the rest of the day. So – after the Olympics, everything is back to normal. 😉

The novel is going to get worked on really hard this week. I need to send that art package to Bindi so she can get started on the art work… which also reminds me that I’ll need to get the specifications to her as far as what CreateSpace wants so I can get the book printed and sold in the still popular dead tree version. Everything is coming together quite nicely… that is when I am focusing on it, when I am looking at something else… not so much. Well, there will be no further distractions in the morning for me until 2014 and I will hopefully be in a better position to deal with it – by staying home those two weeks and just glutting myself on coverage. I might even go on ahead and get another DVR to use to get even more coverage. Thankfully, these are every four years. I should be able to get some work done in that intervening period… I might even finish something! The mind reels!

There is little to say right now. I am still trying to wake up and get going. I can hear the rest of the house stirring, but no dogs. I guess that’s something to be thankful for. I hope that they will maintain this quiet stance for a while. I could use a nap. I’m not going to sleep, but rather I am going to try for my usual minimum word count and then maybe I’ll close my eyes for a while. With no road construction happening, I can cut it a little closer to when I am supposed to be turning on the work PC and complaining that no one’s fixed my desktop interface.

So, with that – I bid you a fond adieu.


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The Eighty-First Post: The One Where I Have A Sweet, Sweet Olympic Hangover…

Well, the Olympics are done on Sunday and with that I should see an uptick in my productivity.  Obviously, since when you’ve hit bottom there is no where else to go but up.  When the Winter Games start, I intend to take those two weeks off (one way or the other) and not miss anything.  Now I get to look forward to the coming football season and try to get into a winter sport.  Hockey, mayhaps?

Well, I am writing this on Nook Color, so this will be a little shorter than my usual ones.  Also, there is nothing else really going on.  I am still working on the Poisoner’s School idea in my head and pushing along I/O Error in my head… and trying to get used to typing on this tiny keyboard.  I am still thinking about the disease.  I am tryig to think of something that would linger in the body for a while.  Given that the main character is a spy, I would think that something that would work on the mind would more dangerous.  I think that might be the route.  I’ll just ldt it turn around in my head.

All in all, while I am sad to see the Games end, I am happy to have my mornings back with the novel.

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The Eightieth Post: The One Where My DVR Is Going To Get A Much Needed Rest…

The Olympics are winding down, which means I’ll let other people record things on the DVR. I still have a lot of Olympic coverage to go through, but now it won’t be ‘fast forward to the fifteen minutes I have to see so I can delete this to make room for the next four hours of coverage’. I’ll be able to sit back and watch the other stuff with some interest. At least I got to see some of my favorite Olympic sports (weightlifting, cycling, basketball and team handball). Now, there is a two year gap until the Winter Games and the better of the Olympics if you ask me. So after all is said and done, there should be a pleasant uptick in my productivity… and by uptick, I mean actually working.

I have been working on the ‘sick man’ idea, and I thought I would combine that with the idea of a positive Poisoner’s School story (taking an idea from Silence So Sharp). I like the idea that someone has to be trained to do something monumental, but there is a very hard deadline – death – to everything. Right now, I am just trying to figure out what sort of disease our main character has and whether or not it’s a lingering disease or something caught in the course of training. While I like the idea that this prospective poisoner making the ultimate sacrifice, I also like the idea of someone being passed over by all the other schools, but the least liked school takes this person and turns them into something far better than the others could have foreseen, if they knew that this school did something good. Now, I just to figure out the timeline and a decent enough set of crises – shouldn’t be too hard.

As far as the novel goes, I need to get a package together for the artist. Poor thing – she thinks I have an outline on paper for the novel. She thinks I’m prepared.

Anyway – there is something else I must discuss. Something near and dear to my heart: pens.

We are witness to the passing of an era, ladies and gentlemen

The pen you see above is no longer being made by Pentel. I looked. No longer in .5 mm (my favorite) and not even in .7 (which will do in a pinch), they no longer exist beyond the ones I have horded. I even ordered a package online once, but they’re not there. I can’t be the only one somewhat put out by this, but I might be the only one who is complaining about it. I would call on others to go to their website and protest the loss of this fine tool. No, I am being serious. All one of you. Hop to it.

Well, there is nothing else to report – the Olympics are winding down and my miffitude (that’s your new word, by the way) about my favorite pen being discontinued and a new novel eagerly awaits production. I hope your day is far more level than mine has been so far.



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The Seventy-Ninth Post: The One Where I Try To Write A Little More From The Comfort of My Routine…

I have my caffeine; I have my sounds (my favorite podcast) and I have my computer running. I also have a headache, but two of these things are going to alleviate that. Now that I am firmly in the routine, let’s put in the work. What do I want to talk about today? Well, I did see The Dark Knight Rises – on its own, it stands as a great summer film. As the final part of the trilogy, it wraps up everything nicely. I think it suffers from the flaw of too many villains and should have stuck with Bane and the not-so-subtle jab at the Occupy movement. However, if they did that, then the fanboys would have been howling for a Batman movie with Catwoman in it. If they had just Catwoman, then the movie’s theme would have to be different and (while sparking another ‘How I Would Have Done It Differently’ – I should get back to writing those) I think it might have taken away from the dark tone the first two movies labored so hard to achieve and maintain. Overall, this was far better than Prometheus, but as far as action and just plain fun goes – The Avengers is still out in the lead. The next summer film to take a shot at is Total Recall, which I will go to see next Friday.

My novel has languished somewhat, but I have an artist for the cover and hopefully they will be kind enough to do it for free. I have an editor (Hello, editor!), so I believe that everything is coming together (cue: ominous music) to get this book off the ground. I am looking for other e-book hosting options beyond Kindle and Nook. I have heard grumbles of dissatisfaction concerning Smashwords, so I might pass on them. Since I have the software to convert books to Epub format, I might sell them on the major sites, but also have a way to purchase them from my website as well once it’s set up. When it’s done, I’ll put up a link from here. I am still aiming for a November or December release. After that, I might deviate a little from my original plans and release a second volume of 4 Bits and a Dollar for October, making it a yearly thing. But I/O Error is going to be my second novel and I am going to have that finished by January (or so I hope). My goal is to have four books a year written, and at least three of them hitting the shelves in that year. This Saturday and Sunday, I am going to work to get the last three chapters finished, and with it the novel. Thankfully, I can write the ice cream scenes at work with my Color, so I can get a little more work done. I sincerely think this is going to work.

Wish me luck.



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Tne Seventy-Eighth Post: The One I Am Writing Behind Enemy Lines

Hello all.  I am using my Color to write this post at work.  This will be a short post because I have a short lunch.

I am a creature of habit.  Any little thing that happens to me that is out of my normal routine ripples through my day like a boulder tossed in a pond.  What threw me off today was people coming over to cut down some tree limbs that were coming close to power lines… so having someone knock on the door at 8:00 AM — an hour and a half before I needed to get up.  I couldn’t get back to sleep comfortably and I was too scatterbrained to write.   I tried to get something going — even if it was some planning on another novel.

How has your day been?  I promise to write something more pithy tomorrow.

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